it was my birthday yesterday,. the celebration would be on Saturday anyway, not a big one, we'll just eat out.. so on my birhday we just shopped, watched a movie, it was therapeutic. and for a while i felt really happy.

However, the day before that, (May 18) my good friends and i went to monasterio de tarlac,. it was a long drive but it was worth it. i was miserable that day, something happened and it was the most painful thing i have ever felt in my life. i was ready to just sulk at home but friends forced me to come out. hence, the roadtrip.=) it was a good thing because i felt really relieved after praying, wishing and just enjoying the view. i never thought that there was a place like that here in tarlac. haha.

but then, just when i thought everything would be fine, reality bit me today. it can never be fine again. i just had to accept that fact, the problem is that i'm having a really tough time accepting it. but i have to. i have to be strong. i have to bear the pain, or else i'll never move forward. i just have to. hopefully this day would mark a new beginning for me. please please please.