i guess i'm back..but i still have to customize this. (hopefully!)

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

sheesh.. i'm having a migraine attack right now, still i'm surfing the net..wala lang, i guess this has been one of the channels i use whenever i need an esacpe..
from school to problems, to life's realities..
nakaka bobo na talaga.. but i guess people my age are now immuned..
i think about other people's problems and disregard mine.. i guess that's the way i like it and the way it should be anyway... i don't want others to feel pity for me..
coz i know i'm lucky enough to be here...

yesterday, gutz, faith and i went to megamall and watched 7's documentaries..
and there i realized that as a journalist, you gotta have the guts to face everything..
from eating "batchoy" (from trash to the pan and poof... pagkain na!) to witnessing the other side of life where glamour and glitter are the only things that matter.. and as reality really does bite.. it doesn't end there..
there are too many people suffering and here i am, doing nothing.. it's such a shame and it sucks..
God help me help those people.. i'm tired of just saying na "nakakaawa naman sila".

wala..
drama lang.. crap...

*** random thoughts @ 12:23 PM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

this was one of the stories i've read a few years back, still, these kind of stories live on.. why can't they fight for it anyway? it seems stupid but i guess it's just a matter of time before someone realizes and then it's too late... as the cliche goes, it's easier said than done...
since i don't have anything to post right now, try reading this one...

THE GIFT

He stood undecidedly before the glass window, surveying the various food-flavored lotions and shower gels, shifting his weight from one foot to the other. He had always hated shopping. But he had to. He knew Natalie would kill him (and probably glory in it) if he ever went to her without a gift. She actually sent him off on this errand specifically."Go na, hon, and buy a gift."

She waved him away imperiously, even before he crossed the threshold of her garage. "Mamaya, it'll be too traffic na and you might be late." "Okay," he sighed, bussing her forehead. "What do you want ba?" "Basta get me something that would be for me lang ha?" She smiled greedily, "Not for both of us." "Fine," he said, and giving her one last hug, went back into his car to go to the mall.

Two minutes later, he received a text from her. "Ups, sori, hapi vday pla".
He chuckled now as he thought of the love of his life. He knew Nat since way back but only realized he loved her a few years ago. Which was really stupid of him since he couldn't imagine life without her. Deciding against the raspberry bath confetti he picked up at the counter, he put the glass tube down and went out of the store. She probably had one already.Walking randomly, he passed a video store and thought of buying her the extended version of her favorite film: The Lord of the Rings. He knew the movie quite well, remembering the first time they watched it. She was burrowed in his arms while she swooned over the male leads (whom he privately thought were a bunch of fairies).

It was after watching that movie when she confided his friend Ron had been making moves on her. "Well, you're pretty kasi eh. Does he bother you ba?" he had asked, just a teeny bit concerned but making a mental note to talk to Ron if she said he was making a nuisance of himself. She shook her head, looking pensive. "No, it's fine." Then she smiled brightly at him. "Carry ko naman eh, me pa?" So he decided not to talk to Ron.Suddenly remembering his buddy, he picked up a T2 dvd (Ron's all time favorite film) and paid for it. He was out of the store when he realized he hadn't bought Natalie anything. He shrugged and decided to have a look around first.

If he couldn't find anything special, he'll just come back for pansy Legolas.He sighed again, looking at a vast array of jewelry. The rings would look really good on her small hands. But then Natalie isn't really fond of jewelry. Being quite accident prone, she either lost them or got cut by them, and he wasn't going to risk it. Besides, he thought that the ring she'd be wearing soon would be quite enough.Running his hand briskly through his hair, he frowned at the shop windows. It's hard enough for a guy to find the perfect gift, but for such a special lady. He knew what he wanted to find. Something that would tell her how much he loved her BUT without being mushy.

Natalie hated mush."Ickle, Jake, you know I hate 'prom' music." She grimaced as she furiously jabbed at the buttons of his cd player. "Don't you have real music here?" She flipped through his cd case in disgust. "When I get married, I'll have head-banging music. And anybody who requests for anything 'senti' can go plan their own wedding!" He just smiled and nodded. He was quite prepared to let her do whatever she wanted.

It was when he decided to take a breather when the idea finally hit him. He sprinted over to Starbucks and looked at the thermos collection. Being coffee addicts, he and Natalie frequented the café and once, she pointed at the small silver flask they had on sale."Dream ko yan." She sighed. "What? The thermos?" He asked, puzzled. "Yeah." "Then why don't you buy one?" "Kasi, it has to be given. You know, I have this romantic dream. That before I go to work in the morning, just when I'm about to step in the car ha, my Prince Charming will come over from the shadows outside our house and he'll give me a thermos full of café mocha to take to the office. Di ba romantic?" She gazed dreamily at the silver flask. "Basta I'll marry the guy who does that."He picked up the silver thermos and approached the lady at the counter with his request. Fifteen minutes later, he was driving along the highway to meet her but the traffic jam was horrendous.

She had texted him twice already. "Wru na? Ur l8. Grrr." He texted her back. "Sori hon. I'l follow n lng s hotel. C u!"
Later when he was walking up the staircase to the restaurant where she was waiting, he wondered whether he intentionally tried to be late. Holding his gift tightly, he told himself that it's too late to have cold feet. Then he saw her and felt the butterflies in his stomach morph into dragons. She's so beautiful in that white dress."I'm going to look like Galadriel," she had told him after she shopped for her dress. "You'd give Cate Blanchett a run for her money." He answered fondly.And she did. He walked slowly towards her until she looked up and saw him.Her face lit up in a lovely smile."Jake! Hay, I thought you'd never come eh. I'll never speak to you again if you stood me up today of all days."

"I had trouble finding you the perfect gift eh. O, eto na." He handed her the flask.
"Oh," she said, staring at the thermos in her hands. "Oh." She looked up at him, blinking back tears.
"I don't know what to say.""No need," he whispered, brushing his fingers against her cheek. "Basta be happy ha?" She nodded. Then she turned and beckoned to Ron.

"Darling, Jake is here."Uy, pare, how come you weren't there sa church? I had to drag a cousin to be my best man tuloy." Ron grinned at him, throwing an arm around his bride."Sorry, pare, super ang traffic."

Then Jake shook his friend's hand. "Congrats. I'm happy for you. Take care of Nat ha?"
Take care of her for me.

*** random thoughts @ 8:16 AM

Sunday, June 19, 2005

school officially started..yeah right..
just when i was having a blast umm..sleeping..that is.. it's been a long time since i've posted anything here..

just few days before going to manila, my sister was hit by a motorcycle.. i didn't know what to do, it happened in a flash, (i didn't even remember their faces.. those bastards!) when i looked at her, she was already lying on the road.. and those f**kers didin't even stop to help her.. i felt like a leaf, i literally shivered as if i was the one hit.. i felt guilt and anger because of that accident.. thankfully she suffered only minor bruises.. if anyhting happened to my sister, i probably wouldn't forgive myself..

i don't why there are still creeps who act as if nothing happened.. how could they be so mean? ugghh.. was helping her stand that much of a deal?

the world IS still inhabited with f**kfaces.. i'm so stupid to believe otherwise..

*** random thoughts @ 2:47 AM