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Friday, September 24, 2010


ok, this is an overdue blog entry. i'll tell my story in a nutshell. last september 11, (yeah right, another infamous 9-11 event for me). we have been robbed and our vault has been taken from our home. thank God no one was harmed. it was a stupid thing really, our househelp took it and brought it to Dau, Pampanga, saying that my mom (who was out out of the country that time) 'called' her and said that there has been an accident, needed money and instructed her to get the vault, asking our other househelp to carry it and bring it to their sleeping quarters. they did all of this while hiding everything away from my dad who was at home that time. i mean come on. who would fall for that kind of moronic lie? if our 2 househelp had any conscience at all, they would have told my dad about it right? i cannot help but think that there has been some conspiracy, an inside job. i just never thought they would do it, come on, we never even treated them like househelp, we treated them as siblings and this is how they repay us. sigh. it was a fiasco. i cannot write about the details because there will be a case pending in the courts soon. i just hope justice would be given to us, even thogh i know the vault can never be retrieved unless a miracle happens. justice please. (crossed fingers). my friend told me that maybe we have 'pai' or bad luck this year, she suggested that we go to a chinese temple and be 'cleansed'. we might as well do it soon. pai be gone!

Friday, July 16, 2010

The ONE That Got Away

i read this on facebook, and since i'm too tired to make an entry here, i'll just re-post this ;p

The ONE That Got Away

In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with… and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequentially become deal breakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want and you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come. Hopefully, you’re single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn’t matter. All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, “What if they were here today?” You’ll wonder, “What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?” That’s what the one that got away is. The biggest “What if?” you’ll have in your life.

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that you’re already with the one you’re with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a “might have been”, but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different. What do you do if it’s not too late? Simple… find him, find her. Because the very existence of a “one that got away” means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee; ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be “the one that got away” as well for the person who is you “the one that got away.”

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it’ll just fall into place somehow and you know, I’m thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, “Hey you, you’re the one that almost got away.”

“Everything happens for a reason…”

by: Mark Macapagal

Monday, July 05, 2010


i know the title's quite funny, being 'uncut' and proud of it. haha. Still, Bench Uncut was a success and we were part of it. we went to manila last friday, such a whole day of appointments and business things, it was so exhausting, but the last stop, which was the fashion show was fun. i've never been a fan of fashion shows although we're privileged enough to be part of these things. the production was amazing (a lot of money involved i must say), although the celebrities were not that 'hot', or maybe i'm just not that into 'celebrities', i mean you can always see them on the tube. but the models are a different thing, they know their stuff, especially those wearing sky-high-killer-heels. whew! the only heels i can wear must only be 3-4 inches (if walking is included), and i couldn't last in it. but in these kind of events, i get dolled up a little even if it's against my will, and it's just refreshing. people usually do a double take because they are not used to seeing me with make-up. haha. it makes me feel my age, because people usually mistake me for being younger (much younger!) than my age. i feel like a totally different person that time. i saw lot of good looking guys, but there was one in particular who kept 'looking', (*blushes*) but we never had the chance to talk because we were seated in different rows. haha, fun night. i think i'm beginning to appreciate the 'perks' of being in the fashion business, even for just a little bit. ;p

Monday, June 28, 2010

la la la

it's raining so hard right now, i just hope there wouldn't be any power outage. and with the beautiful rain comes my terrible headache, maybe because of the weather change or maybe because i'm feeling sick. i need to get out tomorrow, i think my body is telling me to get out more, and i've been doing that for quite a while now, but i think i'm getting sick (literally), probably because i lack sleep. and yesterday i found out i had low blood pressure. or just anemic. sheesh. anyway, june has been a tiring month, but i am welcoming july, no matter what it brings. :)

Sunday, June 06, 2010


quite a long time since i made an entry here., and i'm feeling great.=) i was on a donation craze the other day and i just finished two big bundles. i'm going to donate 1 bundle to a public school, it was purely books and school stuff, those that are not being used and are not going to be used (of course my literary collection is not's my life.hehe) the other bundle is for anyone really, but i'm planning to give it to the Girl's Town (in DSWD), just old clothes and other girly stuff. now my problem is that i still haven't delivered it yet,hopefully next week i'd be able to. i'll ask the help of my ever trusty guy friends to accompany me.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

trips and more...=)

my friend already booked a flight to davao last week. hehe. we talked about it for a few minutes and it was already booked. so there was no turning back now. haha. but i'm quite excited although it's still on september...=) there are plans to go to singapore and thailand this july. money i need you now! =) please come in bulk. haha

Friday, May 28, 2010


i have to congratulate myself. it's almost 1 week and i handled it perfectly, just the way it should be. it was very difficult not to 'reply', it was even tempting to do so. but i have to do this for my own sake. if not, then everything would go back to scratch. so far i have done it for almost a week, if i could do it for a week, then i could do it for a month and so on. can't wait for that. that's why i'm keeping myself busy. so far i'm preoccupied with a lot of things.

my friend called me and asked me to go on a trip, i'd love to go, as long as it fits the budget.. i'm excited to travel anywhere. this is probably my chance to have a change of environment for a while, yehey..=)